Yay (:

I've never felt so happy before. Talking to him makes my darkest, coldest days warm and sunshiny again. (: I hope this lasts forever.

Beauty <3

(: Love

Cutsies! But I would never have my hair like that... :)

Tattoos I Want (:

I don't wall all of these to the scale they're at but they're definitely giving me great ideas!

:/

Really hatin on school right now... not to mention my "teacher" thinks that the reason I suck is because of my freaking phone when really it's because I just can't focus worth a crap and the textbooks are the most dull books on this earth... fml. :/ I wish I was in a real school. Then I could just listen to someone else and take notes. It's a lot more efficient than reading and stopping every second to write stuff down. And when I'm reading something it's like I'm reading the words but sometimes I'll be thinking about something else and I don't remember anything I read five minutes before... I need some ADHD medication but my mom doesn't take me seriously. I wish she'd realize it's not just an excuse. :(

New Life

When people die, you know what I do? One, I trust God to know what He's doing first and foremost. And two, I get really depressed and have a strange urge to put up a depressing profile picture, and dress all in black for the rest of my life. My heart goes out to the Pedersen family tonight. BJ was an inspiration to us all and as hard as it is to say goodbye, it's also very exciting to think that he's in heaven with the Lord. We may not always understand why God lets bad things happen, but we do know that we can trust Him to do what's best for us. When has he ever been wrong?

Really sad, really tired, really hurt, and REALLY discouraged tonight.... but I'll get through it okay. I hope....

Hi

Om nom nooooommyynomnmmpmo

Love siobahn :B

Hmmm.

Today has been a pretty good day. My hair is blonder and I have a new leather jacket and a Beatles shirt. :) Still looking for ways to reach out to the people at my work... it's hard to have a conversation though when I mess up... hmmm.

I'm so tired of feeling this way. And no one even knows what I struggle with every day. I wish I could end it all but I know that's the wrong choice to make... I really need God's help through all this. Cause every good thing in my life turns out to be a horrible thing and I just can't handle it all on my own... :/

This is adorable. :)

:O

Scariest picture I've ever seen. I like, threw my phone across the room when I saw it...

Love hurts? Think again.

The love Jesus gives will never hurt.

<3 my daddy. :)

So many things that I wish you knew, so many walls up I can't break through...

Me? (:

This is what I do in my spare time. :)

<3

I have an amazing family of friends. :)

Kitty Rage

Hello Kitty contact lenses. Haha cool? Creepy? Gross? You decide. :)
And how about this microwave I saw at Target? I think it's adorbs. :] <3

Darkness by Shannon Alice

She tries so hard to keep up
But nothing she does is good enough
She works to earn their admiration
But instead she only gets frustration
She's so sick of looking like she's got it all together
When really it all could come down at the touch of a feather
Sometimes the pain is just overwhelming
Her heart and her soul feel like they're drowning
She screams so loud but no one seems to hear her
They just keep telling her she needs to do better
The whole time she's looking fine on the outside
There's a war raging within her that she desperately hides
She knows they'll all judge her if she shows her true colors
And she'll be thrown out of their lives like so many others
The scars of her past threaten to show
The last thing she wants is for anyone to know
If she tells them how dark and lonely she's become
How weakened she is from fighting the demons
They'll lock her away and throw out the key
Or those she looks up to will see her differently
She hears the whispers of their critical voices
Accusing her for all her wrong choices
She hears the insults and sees angry looks
Their hurtful remarks embed themselves like hooks
Who is this girl who's so broken, unclean?
I'm telling you now that this girl is me.

Truth

Whether you like it or not.

Why? by Shannon Alice

Everyday without you makes the ache grow worse
I'm being prodded towards your cold eyes by an unseen force
No matter how much I try to run from your beauty
Those unloving eyes with their enchantment hold me
All I can do is give in to this love
That's eating through my heart and burning me up
Despite the pain it brings me, I keep up foolish hopes
Despite the tears, you hold me with invisible ropes
You don't even know it but you're torturing me
And even worse yet, no one else hears my plees
I've tried so hard to forget about you
But every time I try, the thoughts come back new
Now I don't even want to forget anymore
Because I've never loved any man so much before
I don't know if you're reading this but I need you right now
I need one more time to see you smile
Cause who knows how long this love will last?
Longer than any love from my past
If you're reading this, hear my cry
I know you don't love me, but please, tell me why.