I hate that I physically feel pain in my chest and have trouble breathing when he doesn't text back. I hate that it's so hard to keep myself from calling him and that I feel like something's wrong whenever I'm not talking to him. But I don't want these feelings to go away. I don't want to ruin the first real chance I've ever had.
The first time I saw you
You came through the storm
I had barely made it through
I was tired and worn
No tears left to cry
The rain washed them away
The wind took my sighs
I could only pray
So the first time we spoke
I was so insecure
So totally broken
But then you were there
I came out of hiding
To a world of beauty
Where just seeing your face
Made me so happy
The old became newer
The frowns became fewer
When I closed my eyes
It was to picture your face
Instead of trying not to cry
I tried to stop my heart racing
Now I stay up all night
Just thinking of this
Thoughts of you are bright lights
In the darkest darkness
Sometimes fear intervenes
Do I really deserve you?
You're intelligent, charming
And I'm just the same me
But somehow I feel
That it's not just my feelings
That "us" will be real
And you'll finally see
You strengthen my faith
And you always make me smile
You brighten my days
And it lasts for a while
So here I am on my knees
Praying for your love
I know God hears my pleas
I'm trusting my Father above
We'll both know the truth
And we may be together
If it's in God's plan
I pray it's forever
I've never felt so happy before. Talking to him makes my darkest, coldest days warm and sunshiny again. (: I hope this lasts forever.
