I hate that I physically feel pain in my chest and have trouble breathing when he doesn't text back. I hate that it's so hard to keep myself from calling him and that I feel like something's wrong whenever I'm not talking to him. But I don't want these feelings to go away. I don't want to ruin the first real chance I've ever had.
You never did give a dang thing honey but I cried, cried for you. And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you.
Just walk away, no use to fit in words that you would never say.
Every smile you fake is so condescending, count it all as scars you've made.
Now that I'm sitting here thinking it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.
Just the start of a song that doesn't really rhyme a lot yet...
See I thought it was too late for you.
That if you loved me I'd tell you not to.
But now I've seen you again and it hurts more than ever.
Knowing that you'll never see me like you see her.
I can't stop thinking about what could have been.
I can't stop dreaming about what we could be.
And all the time you're hurting me, you don't see that I still love you.
You think everything's okay now, but my heart still stops when I see you.
Please tell me this will end soon, I don't even care how.
All I know is I'm so sick of being under this rain cloud.
I'm broken from the inside out.
And I know that it's not your fault.
But can't you see you could love me?
Can't you give us a chance instead of hiding?
I don't want to feel this way anymore.
But I can't help this love that I'm fighting for.
I want to move on, but when I look in your eyes,
You bring me life, without you I'd die.
I'm not too messed up. I promise. I just thought this was a good representation of my past.
"These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just too much that time cannot erase." -Evanescence
