Darkness by Shannon Alice

She tries so hard to keep up
But nothing she does is good enough
She works to earn their admiration
But instead she only gets frustration
She's so sick of looking like she's got it all together
When really it all could come down at the touch of a feather
Sometimes the pain is just overwhelming
Her heart and her soul feel like they're drowning
She screams so loud but no one seems to hear her
They just keep telling her she needs to do better
The whole time she's looking fine on the outside
There's a war raging within her that she desperately hides
She knows they'll all judge her if she shows her true colors
And she'll be thrown out of their lives like so many others
The scars of her past threaten to show
The last thing she wants is for anyone to know
If she tells them how dark and lonely she's become
How weakened she is from fighting the demons
They'll lock her away and throw out the key
Or those she looks up to will see her differently
She hears the whispers of their critical voices
Accusing her for all her wrong choices
She hears the insults and sees angry looks
Their hurtful remarks embed themselves like hooks
Who is this girl who's so broken, unclean?
I'm telling you now that this girl is me.

Broken

Just the start of a song that doesn't really rhyme a lot yet...

See I thought it was too late for you.
That if you loved me I'd tell you not to.
But now I've seen you again and it hurts more than ever.
Knowing that you'll never see me like you see her.
I can't stop thinking about what could have been.
I can't stop dreaming about what we could be.
And all the time you're hurting me, you don't see that I still love you.
You think everything's okay now, but my heart still stops when I see you.
Please tell me this will end soon, I don't even care how.
All I know is I'm so sick of being under this rain cloud.

I'm broken from the inside out.
And I know that it's not your fault.
But can't you see you could love me?
Can't you give us a chance instead of hiding?
I don't want to feel this way anymore.
But I can't help this love that I'm fighting for.
I want to move on, but when I look in your eyes,
You bring me life, without you I'd die.